The spiritual life isn't a one-time event-- it's a life pattern, built layer by layer. It takes a while to build it. And it is never finished. Barbara Cawthorn Crafton.
The idea of a human life and a spiritual life existing simultaneously hasn't been an easy one to grasp. Most of my life has been focused on humanity. What shall I eat? Where will I live? What should I wear? And what will I be (when I grow up)? This world in which we live demands a great deal of time and attention. And having survived for nearly 77 years I am feeling that in a few years I will want to stop the world and get off!
After two years of retirement the phone rang and it was a friend of mine who had been ordained as a priest in the Episcopal church. Her secretary had just quit and she asked me to take the job for three months while she looked for someone to take the job permanently. I turned out to be the permanent replacement! Eight years later I was still there and finally retired at age 75. During that time, encouraged by my friend and priest, I joined a group preparing for ordination to the Diaconate. I was chosen as a candidate for ordination and was thrilled. However the National Convention was being held at the same time and for the first time limited Deacon's to a mandatory retirement age of 72. I was 72. I had a beautiful letter recommendng me and sometimes read it to remind me that I am of value, employed or not, age 77 and counting!
So now I am trying to live a meaningful human life and a meaningful spiritual life. I have good moments and lots of laughter but there are times when I feel I have missed the boat and will regret it.
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